Is now the time?

[tripper]

Poor dh... I just had some mid-cycle spotting yesterday so I explained that now is good baby-making time, but that by Sunday it'll be too late. (I had to give him some context for the time line as last month AF was almost here and he asks, "Are we still good to try?"... :shakes head: Sigh... No dear, I told you 2 weeks ago was a good time... Lol)

Have you ever tried to bd under pressure?? It sucks. Let's just say I'm feeling hot, but in all the wrong ways. Lol

Not. Going. To happen. This month.
Oh well.

[Jessy]

I'm so sorry, Sarah. It's tough when you are ttc and you are charting and planning and watching your cycle and then trying to bd at THE perfect time without trying to make it feel...pushed or 'under pressure' which takes the fun (and at times the ability) right out of it. Praying for you, your heart and your dh!

[tripper]

Well now I'm wondering if I o'd a couple of days later than I usually do (ovulation pains came 2 days after I thought they would!) so maybe we did bd at a good time after all!

I don't know... I'm just getting tired of all this waiting, analyzing, tracking... I'm not sure what to do with myself anymore! I need to make sure my relationship with dh doesn't suffer through all this, so if I'm not preggo this cycle, I think I'm gonna just back off for a while. Or maybe not. Lol

[kim]

I'm sorry its such a roller coaster ride, Sarah! Praying for peace! ((hugs))

[melloyellochelle]

Hugs Sarah! It sounds like your DH is being supportive. I hope you guys can REALLY connect and enjoy your BDing. Praying for you!!

[buttercup_97140]

I hear ya Sarah, been there done that. Dh and I forced bd once, and vowed to never do that again. We decided that if the Lord wants to open my womb and allow us to get preggo, then He would give us the desire to be with each other. That was a few kiddos/pregnancies back, and I am always amazed looking back at how the Lord has really done that since.
I think taking a break from the charting and watching is a good thing. It's hard to let go at first, but remembering that God is in control whether we chart or not helps so much.
I encourage you to only bd because you desire your husband and want to share that with him, even if you try that for only a month, it really puts things back into perspective. (not that you don't want your husband, but it's hard to not have the other motive in mind too!)

I pray for an open womb and sticky baby soon!! Love you gal!!
Amber

[rachel]

I am pretty glad I (officially?) backed off charting, etc., altho I occasionally use some of the old gear. I have been using up some old Lh strips before they are beyond expired useless. I still know pretty much what is going on at any time, without even having to pay close attention, just without the mounds of court evidence. I still engage Dh more around O... sometimes... just because. Ditching the gear didn't change that entirely, but it did move ttc out of the forefront a bit. But I still have periods where the grief follows me around anyway, I still have some bad AF visits. Just can't quite escape it?

The times dh engaged me this year so far, his timing was right. And I wanted proof that could happen (ever since I stopped forcing it), that in God's timing we would certainly pair up at the right time, miraculously even. I read into that when it happened, though. I still read into things and sometimes think a 2ww is IT. So the big stab in the heart AF still happens despite, at least a few times a year.

Most of the remotely fertility related "focus" I have put into health as far as changing our diet, supps, and keeping active. And rubbing off on dh in those things. He is finally taking vitamins... It would be interesting if we both have our day soon and the past was possibly some vitamin or mineral deficiency... I betcha in a few months I'll have a cycle we try, try and be reading into the fact he was on vits for the token few months... I hate this so much. It's like running into a rock wall over and over.

HUGS and Love ya..

[Premommy]

Originally Posted by tripper

I don't know... I'm just getting tired of all this waiting, analyzing, tracking... I'm not sure what to do with myself anymore! I need to make sure my relationship with dh doesn't suffer through all this, so if I'm not preggo this cycle, I think I'm gonna just back off for a while. Or maybe not. Lol

After one month of temping, tracking, and analyzing (before even actually TTC), I'm starting to wonder about the wisdom of it. I feel more stressed about TTC, and I keep having to re-submit my plans to the Lord and my husband's wisdom and guidance. My will seems to have taken precedence rather quickly, and I got angry with my husband when he suggested that he needed to pray more about the decision on our timing of when to start trying (was supposed to be next month). I even have to keep reminding myself that it does not matter if we BD exactly at the right time, it does not guarantee pregnancy. And I have to remind myself that I want God's timing and will on this, not my own (which is RIGHT NOW! ). All the tracking almost seems like I'm putting my hope in my own means of getting pregnant, instead of listening to the Spirit and waiting on and praying for God's timing. I can't even stand the thought of getting pregnant taking awhile, and did some real heart-searching this morning about my motives for wanting to get pregnant, and if I really know I am walking in God's will right now.

Not saying any of that toward you, just sharing some frustration with all of it! Don't know why this is so hard, and it all seems so unfair when women that don't want babies are getting pregnant right and left with no seeking of the Lord's will at all! We have a friend who didn't seem to put much thought or prayer into it and is currently pregnant, too, and I really struggle with my heart toward her and even being around her. :-/