vent

[Margi]

I had it all together. Really I did. Then I had contractions all night long... and in my heart of hearts I had it all figured out I would have this baby on Father's Day so I was happily embracing the contractions and timed them most of the night - every 8-10 minutes, lasting 1 minute each and getting pretty strong. Then they fizzled again by morning. And I was beyond exhausted for having lost an entire night of sleep...

Yet another sleepless night, and I couldn't face it. I cried buckets and literally fell into depression this morning. WHY? I was so beside myself. I don't know why because I was handling it so well yesterday... then I got messages from 2 friends both heading into the hospital this morning to have their babies (yes, the same hospital I will be going to). I can't tell you how horribly hard that was to accept today... Even though both of them were well overdue...

God has been showing me, yet again, how MUCH he loves me and how HE is in control and I need to leave it all to Him... His timing is perfect! I'm trying to cling to that but it is just the most difficult day right now... poor hubby isn't getting much of a Father's Day and I need to pull out of this funk!

[Premommy]

Praying for you today!! I can't imagine how difficult this must be. Know you are covered in prayer! <3

[Margi]

Thanks, gals!! And yes the hormones are just a MESS. That's screwing me up right now. After the original post, I went and cranked up the worship music and made BBQ Chicken pizza for hubby. Felt so much better after! FACT: you can't stay blue with worship music pounding around you! lol

My 2 friends both had their babies this morning... one came 25 minutes after she got to the hospital!! She was 5 days overdue and the other friend was 8 days over. I have another friend that's currently 6 days over. YES I KNOW I SHOULDN'T COMPLAIN!!

[Margi]

Originally Posted by JRBL

I'm telling ya... those last few days are just torture, aren't they?

Truly! I've never gotten this near to my due date before... now I know what I was "missing" out on! And I can't tell you how tempting that C-section offer is on days like today... but I'd never sacrifice all I've gone through now just to book a c/s.

[LAlvis]

Aww, Margi, I logged on to see how you were doing-- I really can relate to your feelings. Being so done does make the last days a unique kind of torture. And those last few nights, especiall when the contractions keep you awake, are so miserable. I found myself getting depressed, too. I'm so glad the Lord has lifted your heart--we can all offer sympathy and encouragement, but only HE can do soul work! It's going to be soon, friend, and you've done so well. I've honestly been amazed at how well you've seemed to deal with the challenges of this pregnancy. And it's almost over! Hang in there, cling to the Lord, and vent here all you want to. We understand. Hugs and prayers!

[ChamomileFriend]

Praying for you Margi! I think that is so awesome that the drs/midwives in your area are so comfortable letting women go past their due date and not pushing them into getting inductions or c/s. I hope the days between now and when you go into labor for real just fly by. I think the end is so miserable sometimes so that you will be too relieved to be nervous when labor finally starts in earnest. I am glad you were able to turn your mood around with some help from Jesus

[Krystalia]

Your precious bundle will be here shortly! I am praying for peace for you girl! God's time is perfect time so i am glad the Drs aren't rushing things.

[LovinMommyLife]

Hugs girl!! That false labor stuff is just awful Praying you can get some sleep and get your body geared up for the real thing!! Come on baby