Why can't I get happy/into this pregnancy? With Josh I was a fluttering butterfly of happiness and excitement. This time when people ask me about my pregnancy all I want to do is run away and not talk about it. I have not really bonded with this baby...I know its still a little early since I haven't felt kicks yet. I feel bad though. Sometimes I wonder why God chose now to give us another, in a few months we are going to start having more finaincial issues with my dh student loan repayment and we have to find a larger apartment since this is a 1 bedroom and we are already busting at the seams. my dh still can't find a job that pays more then minimum wage with his bachlors degree. I'm sure the financial stress is making me not able to relax in the pregnancy. I just wish I could be happy about this baby. I am nervous about going from 1 to 2. I already have hardly enough energy when I get off work for him. Then when I carry him out to the car and I am alone, and I have the diaper bag, my purse in one arm and him in the other I think "how am I going to carry another baby right now?" I know God has all these things in his hands, and everything will work out because God has ALWAYS worked things out and we have never gone without for one day. I am having a hard time releasing all of this though. thanks for letting me ramble.

It'll be ok.

Randomly touching on points you brought up....

#1 will most likely be walking by the time #2 arrives.
God chose you to have another right now to prove His Sovereignty.
He wants you to trust Him.

The good thing is...you already know this...you already see this..you know what you need to do. It's easier to do so once you know what to do.

I understand how you're feeling about the financial strain and all. We've been there. And like you, we *knew* He would provide, as always, but there are those moments where it's just hard. It's hard to believe it. To really, fully, believe it. Just keep praying and trusting...LET yourself believe and trust :)

Oh...and the multiple bags...consolidate sistah! I have never carried a diaper bag and a purse..find a small pocket book that fits inside a diaper bag. Or a purse big enough to multi-purpose. Really, you don't *need* a monster diaper bag to take every.single.time. you leave the house. You just need something big enough to carry your purse essentials, a diaper and wipes. You can keep a bigger bag with more dipes/wipes and extra clothes in the vehicle :)

And {{{{big hugs}}}}

Hugs, hugs, hugs, sweetie, will keep you in specific prayer.

As you are just remember God is sufficient always.

You'll do just great with 2, somehow it just all clicks once you are there. Its worrying before hand that does no one any good sweetie. Just know it works, when it needs to work, once your baby is born. Somehow it just clicks, you feel that peace that God did know best. The first trimester can be a doozy. You need to just trust me on this one, that when you are confronted with issues of having enough hands or space or money it all works out somehow, even if it means making a small space work for more than one child it can be done. Don't put undo pressure upon yourself.

As a mom that has needed to make tight spaces work in the future I'll be happy to share them with you. Till than just some extra hugs and prayers coming your way.

I think we all have different feelings about each pregnancy. I was like you SO excited about my first DS. We had been trying for 3 years and finally got our miracle. My second DS I was excited but more busy w/ the first. You will make it w/ 2. Will be praying for you.[praying]

Give it a bit more time. God WILL work things out for you. Housing, employment, managing two kids....He has plan for it all. It is really hard waiting - I've been there too, particularly with finance stuff - just keep on believing and He will provide. ((hugs))

Hon, don't worry, you're not the first one to have those thoughts! I still have some random worries about going from 1 to 2, even though I'm thrilled to be having another one. I think that it's very normal. Remember, first of all, that Josh will change A LOT in just a few short months. Hannah was around 21 months when I first got pregnant, she's now 27 months and really has changed a lot. We're working on potty training and she talks a lot better than she did back then. She will come up to me and say things like, "Is the baby kicking?" :D She adores babies, and so I know that she will love this new little one, even if I have to keep her from smothering it. LOL.

The other ladies gave you some great advice already, so I'll just offer (((HUGS))) and say that everything WILL be okay and you will be a great mom to your two kids. After the initial adjustment, I imagine that we'll wonder what we did with all the extra time when we only had one!

I think the ladies have offered you good advice. But I also know it's hard to hear "Don't worry. God will provide." I say that because I've been there. That whole, "I gotta control ALL this" attitude and REALLY having to work on that control issue and realizing it is not up to ME but HIM. Hard I know...but talk to Him and maybe there will be answers that even surprise you.:-D

As for the pregnancy I think that is normal. If admitted, not every Mom was as "thrilled" with their next wee ones. Not saying we don't or didn't want them but it is different. With your first...it's just you and that Baby inside you. No one tuggin at your feet askin for more milk, or another movie or that her brother is hitting her...But once that Baby is here it will be a new love, different, but new.

And gotta go with Tara on the condensing. With #2 I used a backpack/diaper bag and put my "purse stuff" in there. By #3 I was down to a small bag in the car (still had 3 in diapers mind you), lipstick in my car's cup holder and my ID and bank card in my pocket. And now that I can go back to a purse? Don't want to. It is SO liberating not worrying about if someone will snag my purse. And I was a HUGE purse gal prior to kids (over 100 bags). Weird how God knows just what we need even if it takes a while to get where He needs us huh?

Blessings to you!! Email if you need an ear. ~Kerri

It'll be ok.

Randomly touching on points you brought up....

#1 will most likely be walking by the time #2 arrives.
God chose you to have another right now to prove His Sovereignty.
He wants you to trust Him.

The good thing is...you already know this...you already see this..you know what you need to do. It's easier to do so once you know what to do.

I understand how you're feeling about the financial strain and all. We've been there. And like you, we *knew* He would provide, as always, but there are those moments where it's just hard. It's hard to believe it. To really, fully, believe it. Just keep praying and trusting...LET yourself believe and trust :)

Oh...and the multiple bags...consolidate sistah! I have never carried a diaper bag and a purse..find a small pocket book that fits inside a diaper bag. Or a purse big enough to multi-purpose. Really, you don't *need* a monster diaper bag to take every.single.time. you leave the house. You just need something big enough to carry your purse essentials, a diaper and wipes. You can keep a bigger bag with more dipes/wipes and extra clothes in the vehicle :)

And {{{{big hugs}}}}

Totally agree with Tara here. Not more I can add to that really.

As for carrying everything, girl do some babywearing. I don't want to be the babywearing freak on this board but it was seriously a life saver when I had Micah. Abby was only 19 months old when I had Micah so she was still little. Babywearing saved the day. I wore Micah in a wrap which left me hands free to do whatever with Abby. I still wear Micah alot and find it easier to get the two kiddos into the car or shops or whatever. Micah goes on my back, Abby holds my hand, and I carry one bag over my shoulder. So much less stress that way. HTH!