Well AF showed her ugly head this morning : ( We will continue to keep trying . I am doing ok, I guess I just kinda expect it.. which I know isn't good either. I trust that God will guide us through this.

Heather...while going through fertility treatments and years of big fat NO's and AF's rearing it's ugly head....you know what helped keep my spirits up?
On those days AF arrived AGAIN or I was especially down? I had a BIG pillow that read HOPE on it and I would hold it...something tangible to HOLD ONTO! And the song "My Hope is in you Lord" I would crank that CD LOUD and SING along (at home mind you so as not to cause pain to other ears! wink, wink!) full volume!! Kind of "perked" my mood and focused my mind and heart again and again......
Hugs, I know the exhaustion...stress...waiting...fears...questions of faith and success...defeat...and EVENTUAL JOY in whatever form of clear answer or options God throughs your way and hands you for a family! Hang in there sweetie!
I'm saying a prayer for you RIGHT NOW!!!

*hugs* for ya