07-11-2007, 06:42 PM
Hey, My name is Winnie. A few weeks ago a posted about ttc our second. To refresh you, we have one son through the gift of adoption, and my biological clock is ticking like crazy. I really want to experience that part of womanhood and have a pregnancy. I don't really know if God has ever talked to me and said that it would happen. It would take a miracle because my husband had cancer and is now sterile. My heart is always toward conceiving naturally and when I see other pregnancies, I can almost relate in such a way like I am going to experience the same thing. I have been struggling with this, month after month for 8 1/2 years now. It is emotionally draining, and heartbreaking. Should I just let the whole idea go, or wait and hope for something I am not even sure is the Lord's will for us??
I know you ladies have a lot of great wisdom and I trust you in this.
Please let me know what you think :?:
07-11-2007, 08:34 PM
I always pray for things like that that God will grant me the desires of my heart...or change the desires of my heart.
We have two and I desperately want a third...however my DH did not and had a vasectomy this spring against my will...
So I continue to pray for Gods will and for peace and for him to grant me a miracle (since his count is officially zero) or to change the desire of my heart....
07-11-2007, 10:15 PM
I agree with Breezy. When I find myself wanting something so badly I can taste it, I first bring it before the Lord, but I always ask that if it's his will, could such and such desire be "granted." I also pray that the Lord would make my heart's desire echo his will so that I am not asking or begging for something that he doesn't have planned for me.
The desire to get pregnant and deliver a child can be so very strong. I say hope for the best, but don't let it get in the way of seeing the miracle in having your son. TTC can become an obsession, and that doesn't glorify the Lord.
The Lord knows,
07-11-2007, 11:04 PM
I think that I am going to fast about this issue. I am going to seek the Lord to change my heart to match His completely. If it is not to conceive, then I am blessed to have the one. He was a miracle, litteraly handed to us within 24 hours. I am very blessed. If it is no, it will help me to move foward and not look back. Please pray the Lord speaks, and that I can hear what his will is for me.
You bless me,
07-14-2007, 02:54 PM
I believe that God has put the desire to carry a child in every women. His plan was to have us multiply the earth. Therefore creating a desire to fulfill that plan. But sin came along and changed things. Some are unable to fulfill that dream of carrying a child, some for unknown reasons, some for health reasons. Either way sickness and death is because of how sin entered this world. That said, God can do anything! But what I am praying for now is that God will change my desire of wanting another to wanting His will for me. If you know that your dh's count is zero due to cancer, then I would not focus on ttc but if by God's hand you did get pregnant well then praise God. TTC is a roller coaster, and I believe that Satan can use it to get us discouraged and broken.
Php 4:11 Not that I speak in respect of want: for I have learned, in whatsoever state I am, [therewith] to be content.
Until we reach this state of mind, I believe only then God can do His part.
It's just getting to that state of mind that is difficult.
Keep praying and you'll know what God's will is. Love you my friend and sister in Christ. [praying]
I am so thankful for your prayers on this everyone. But with much deliberation and conversation with my dh, we have decided that we would love a pregnancy, but we are very content with where the Lord has us now. If He decides to bring a baby, we will welcome the blessing with open arms. So we are laying down the desires of the pregnancy to the hands of the Good Lord who knows what is best.
Love Ya and thanks so much