alidight
05-08-2007, 07:31 PM
We are in our third month TTC our first baby. last month i brought a thermometer and have been taking my temp first thing in the morning before I get up. Its been really helpful since my period is no where near regular (in the past 10 months I have had three cycles that lasted 7 weeks or longer!! 7 weeks without a period! the longest was 10 weeks!!!!!) We were absolutely sure we were pregnant but the tests were negative and when we would finally go to the doctor they would confirm it.
the first time it happened i was so sure we were pregnant (after all i hadn't had my period in 8 weeks!) and i went out and brought some little booties and a little hat. when we went to the doctor at 9 weeks (even though 5 tests had said BFN) they confirmed it was a BFN. we were just walking out the door when the nurse came running up and asked us to go back to the doctors office. she came back in and said that as she was throwing the test out it had read a BFP!! the line was only slightly there but still there. she took my blood to have it confirmed and told us to ring back that afternoon at 4pm. we spent the whole day getting excited thinking that the test couldn't be wrong.
we were involved with a uni group that met and had big meetings on thursday afternoon starting at 4pm (there was one that day). I went and was hanging out to ring the doctor. I chatted with the head of the group's wife who had just had their 3rd who i had been talking to all through this thing and she kept saying "oh its got to be positive! how could it now be?" so this got me all excited too and she kept looking over at me and mouthing "do you know yet?" we rang the doctor 3 times but they hadn't received the test results yet.
anyway when i was busy organising the drama with some students at about 4.30pm my DH took a call on my cell from the doctor. he came up to me and hugged me from behind and whispered in my ear that it was negative! i felt so deflated! i was in the middle of handing out props and just felt like i wanted to cry. I made an excuse and went out to the corridor and sat on the step and cryed. the wife i had been talking to came and cryed with me after i told her.
We went home that night and I got out the little booties and hat and lied down on our bed fingering them as they were so soft. DH came and lied behind me and just comforted me. I cried and cried and cried. I know we didn't have a baby in the first place but i really felt like we had miscarried or like we lost our baby that I was so sure was in there. DH left me to have some time alone and I got up and put the things away. It felt like I was saying goodbye to a lost baby.
Even now 1 year later and after 2 more times of being over 7 weeks late I still feel like I lost that first baby. I have been tested and there is nothing wrong with me or my DH. We have only been TTC actually for 3 months now and have had two BFN's and are now waiting for testing time. My DH has said to me recently that he knows God made me to be a Mum (Mom to you guys). That was the biggest complement anyone could have given me.
Please pray for us. We totally believe that all will be in God's timing and aren't at the point where we are desperate. I am coping much better with BFN's which is good. Thank you for allowing me to share our story so far.
Alison.
the first time it happened i was so sure we were pregnant (after all i hadn't had my period in 8 weeks!) and i went out and brought some little booties and a little hat. when we went to the doctor at 9 weeks (even though 5 tests had said BFN) they confirmed it was a BFN. we were just walking out the door when the nurse came running up and asked us to go back to the doctors office. she came back in and said that as she was throwing the test out it had read a BFP!! the line was only slightly there but still there. she took my blood to have it confirmed and told us to ring back that afternoon at 4pm. we spent the whole day getting excited thinking that the test couldn't be wrong.
we were involved with a uni group that met and had big meetings on thursday afternoon starting at 4pm (there was one that day). I went and was hanging out to ring the doctor. I chatted with the head of the group's wife who had just had their 3rd who i had been talking to all through this thing and she kept saying "oh its got to be positive! how could it now be?" so this got me all excited too and she kept looking over at me and mouthing "do you know yet?" we rang the doctor 3 times but they hadn't received the test results yet.
anyway when i was busy organising the drama with some students at about 4.30pm my DH took a call on my cell from the doctor. he came up to me and hugged me from behind and whispered in my ear that it was negative! i felt so deflated! i was in the middle of handing out props and just felt like i wanted to cry. I made an excuse and went out to the corridor and sat on the step and cryed. the wife i had been talking to came and cryed with me after i told her.
We went home that night and I got out the little booties and hat and lied down on our bed fingering them as they were so soft. DH came and lied behind me and just comforted me. I cried and cried and cried. I know we didn't have a baby in the first place but i really felt like we had miscarried or like we lost our baby that I was so sure was in there. DH left me to have some time alone and I got up and put the things away. It felt like I was saying goodbye to a lost baby.
Even now 1 year later and after 2 more times of being over 7 weeks late I still feel like I lost that first baby. I have been tested and there is nothing wrong with me or my DH. We have only been TTC actually for 3 months now and have had two BFN's and are now waiting for testing time. My DH has said to me recently that he knows God made me to be a Mum (Mom to you guys). That was the biggest complement anyone could have given me.
Please pray for us. We totally believe that all will be in God's timing and aren't at the point where we are desperate. I am coping much better with BFN's which is good. Thank you for allowing me to share our story so far.
Alison.