Hormones!!!!!!!!!!

[savedbygrace]

I just got done looking at my fertility calendar and according to my calendar dh and I did the BD on the right days. And now I want to cry.... I want to conceive so badly! :cry: I go through these ups and downs, some months I'm fine and others I just get sad. Not depressed, but sad. Almost in a begging God "please please please!!!! Let this be the month" Logically I know it is all in Gods hands. I know I need to leave it there at His feet. I know it is in His timing. But that doesn't mean that month after month the dissappointment goes away. KWIM? In my eyes it's like a little kid going to there dad and asking for something they really really want and the dad says, "well maybe next month" and the next month comes around and the kid get's excited and hopes and the dad says "well maybe next month"!!!!! That's how I feel. I don't get upset or angry, just sad.

So I'm just praying that this will be the month. Hoping, praying, begging and wanting.

[buttercup_97140]

You are right, the Lord's timing is perfect and we need to rest in that. I am sorry it's so hard. Our heart's desires can be so strong, but maybe the Lord is teaching you patience and to rely on him during this waiting time.
My dh and I got pg the first month we tried...before we were married and before I was saved and Dh got back on the right path, but we miscarried. Then it took us 3 years to get pg again, miscarried again, married by then, but not saved yet, but Dh was back with the Lord. Then it took us about a year and fertility meds to ge pg with Dd. I got saved when I was about 24 weeks pg with her Praise the Lord! Then we got pg after our second PPAF and are about to have Noah. Got our BFP on DD's first birthday.

So, really, who knows the Lord's will for our lives, but he KNOWS and it's so amazing to look back and see what he was doing in our lives!

I pray you get your BFP this month, but if not, that your heart will be content with whatever the Lord gives you!

Amber

[believeNgrace]

I know the cries and pains of wanting God to answer. The desperations of pleading.

DH and I have been married 9 years. The ttc journey long but the Godly love perfect, gentle and I do mean perfect in abundance.

After year 2..then 4...then 6....and onto year 8, without a little one, the questions grew great but the trust in God even stronger.

Year 8, I completely understood God's timing....my baby brother was murdered....22 years old, he was savagely taken from us. I knew God had saved me from possible pregnancy devastation should I had been pregnant then, with several court proceedings, along with the ongoing grief process I still battle each day, I wouldnt' have been able to withstand the devastation....8 months later, I was in a terrible car accident breaking my clavicle, rib cage, and 6 months of intense physical therapy. Again, m body would not have been able to sustain a pregnancy.

And now, I'm so blessed to say, God's timing is perfect in every way with our first child on the way.

God's timing is perfect, may you find peace in knowing, He hears your cries, He sees your pain but His will He has perfectly planned and waiting for you dear Sister.

May you rest your weariness upon angel's wings to carry you.

[savedbygrace]

Can I just say that you ladies are so wonderful. Thank you for your loving words. I know Gods timing is perfect. But your words were like I nice comforting hug!!! Thank you.

[Faith1]

I have to say that your post is what inspired me to become a member and post here. I have been reading the public portion of the board for many months now and TTC for even longer, and I totally understand your feelings! The hormones are really tough sometimes! Thankfully so far this month I am doing ok. Last month was terrible though. I too have a daughter around the age of yours, so things were just too similar to let it go, I had to post! I love the support that this board gives everyone and hopefully I will be able to do the same.

[pioneerchristianmomof3]

[prayer] and sprinkling baby dust!