Maybe this should go in the Prayer/Praise area, but it's so closely tied to ttc...

I'm just struggling with my attitude lately and need some prayer to help me pull thru. There are lots of good things happening in my life, but I also just found out that 2 good friends, both younger than me, are pregnant. The first one I found out on Facebook and almost passed out when I saw it. The second, I just heard about tonight and they went off the pill and boom, got pregnant right away. Sigh...

What really upset me was my physical reaction to the FB announcement - I literally could not look at the pic they posted of the 2 of them without feeling sick! Maybe it's just cause I'm under a ton of stress at work right now, but I've never felt that way before. Gotta get past this somehow...

Will increase the prayers from down here.

I have had stress increase, add to or stir up grief ridden pangs before (worst feel like my womb is screaming), but I never really thought of the connection until you mentioned it. Sometimes a [crysad][crysad] helps clear it.

[hug][hug][hug][hug][hug][hug][hug][hug][hug]

Praying for you Tripper [heart]

Thanks Kathleen - much appreciated!
Rach - a good cry, and time, are what usually help. I'm doing better today, but I'm now having issues with dh...

He is extremely private about anything to do with himself. Like, SUPER private. He doesn't like me talking to anyone about our IF and will get angry if he finds out I have.
As you can tell, I on the otherhand, need to be able to talk about how I'm feeling (even if it means I'm constantly hopeful, or regularly down) and I don't think dh wants to hear about how my desire for a biological child is affecting me that day. Cause it affects me EVERY day, in one way or another. He doesn't have that regular reminder that it, once again, didn't happen for us. He's fixated on adopting and wants nothing to do with doctors.
I'm just getting to a point where I'm tired of trying to pass off our childlessness with family and friends - they all wanna know when we're gonna have kids! And the fact that we've been married over 7 years and still don't have any? Duh! They've GOTTA know there's an issue!
But if I try to discuss all this with dh, he just gets really upset and doesn't want me talking to anyone about it. When I told him I'd spilled it all online here (lol) he panicked and questioned me on how I was SURE that no one on here knew us irl... So if you do know me, don't let on, k? Lol
I want to honor dh's wishes, but if I *can't* talk to anyone, I think I'll explode!
What would you do?

I just want to give you a big hug~

do you think that maybe it bothers him or that he blames himself on why yall havent conceived? the reason why I ask is because awhile back we were planning before we conceived #3 that he/she would be our last, dh and I were talking about doing something permanent and found its easier for a man to get a vasectomy than a woman tubal ligation well dh was appalled with the whole idea, he said he couldnt because he would feel less of a man, like he couldnt reproduce, i thought it was silly since he was asking me to fix myself so I couldnt reproduce so we discussed this with friends and surprising alot of guys felt the same way, and was wondering if talking over with friends and family about conceiving and there might be an issue that it would embarrass him? :/ (just a thought, could be WAY off here lol) I know when things bother my dh he doesnt want to talk about it at all, just pretend there isnt a problem, and sometimes I have to spend alot of time in prayer asking God for wisdom on how to address the issue because its something that I feel that it needs to be discussed, I do have to prepare myself to stay calm at all times and talk in a calmly voice because my dh does get upset and tries to brush me off and sometimes mad, but I go with God asking for the Holy Spirits help on what to say and how to say it and normally he calms down and we are able to address whatever the issue is without any screaming or the other leaving the house yk? am I wrong to ask you if he really understands how important this is to you and how much this affects your daily life? [hug] [hug] I know its important for you to discuss this, I know I couldnt hold this in and wouldnt recommend it, and going behind dh's back will just cause conflict between yall (I think) so having a heartfelt talk about it and letting him how you feel is probably what I would do because your feelings are important too [hug] I am still [praying] for you and for Gods perfect will for your life [loveyou]

((hugs)) and prayers....

Thank you for sharing your heart, it is important for us to know this and to pray!

Melinda I agree - I've had someone else remind me how none of us would want our dh's telling everyone about a medical problem that was personal, and I had kinda forgotten about that perspective. I think I'm just gonna have to be more open with him about who I talk to and exactly how much detail I give them (Which usually - except here - isn't much. Just enough to grasp the overall situation.)

Thanks for letting me vent!