Hi, My Name is Leu. I am 21 years old. Ive been married for over a year. My husband and I love the Lord with all our hearts. We desire is to please Him in all we say and do. We want children. We both love children and we decided not to go on birth control when we first got married. Of course everything happens in Gods timing, but its very stressful sometimes when I (as the woman) cant produce the child me and my husband want. I personally feel bad, because the last time I went to the doctor my husband believed I was pregnant because I was a week late. I wasn't. I had the flu. He was so upset, and I dont like to see him hurt like this. I ask God to show me His will. And being at my job doesn't make it easier. I am a lead teacher at Blessed Hands Child Development Center. I work with the Newborns-24 months......

I didnt intend to write all of this. Just trying to give you a bit of a background. I am just asking for your prayers and encouragement and any advice.... I am seeking and trusting and totally on the LORD.

Proverbs 3:5,6
Romans 5:5

Welcome to c'moms, Leu! [welcomewave] Once you decide that you are ready to start a family, the trying and waiting can be hard! Praying the Lord blesses you and your dh in His perfect time! :)

Welcome Leu! Try having a multi-vitamin right away - so when you do conceive you and baby will be off to a fine start. :-D

Welcome to the board, Leu! :)

Welcome Leu! I pray the Lord opens your womb soon and you all are blessed with a beautiful miracle~ :)

[welcomesign] to C'Moms. It used to be tripper and myself, but we're seeing a few new members also struggling to ttc#1 here, lately. Hopefully all their threads have some comfort to offer.

Praying for your fam [praying]

And knowing how being around babies makes me need a good cry after, I can't imagine. It's amazing how often I run into women ttc for a long time who also work with children or moms. I've read a related book where the author went thru all this while being a ob-gyn, delivering babies.
But years and years of this has laid such a firm foundation to lean on God, chiseled away a lot of baggage (I think I was what one might call a strong willed child? for one example...), and probably more so for having mom related work (this site) all the while. Written a little about it (incl. the hardest years) at childless.me.

Hugs...

‎"Choose to hope in the Lord. He has not forgotten you. He has heard your cry, and He is working behind the scenes to deliver you. Timing is everything with God. He knows when you are in the right position to move on to the next step. You can be sure of this: He won't be late; He will be right on time!" Michael A. Youssef

Welcome to C'moms! [welcomesign] I know you will be able to find encouragement and support here! (Plus lots of prayers for you!)... so I hope you stick around!

Paloma.

Welcome Leu! Always great to 'see' new faces on CMoms. I will be praying for you as you wait for the blessing of your first babe. Please post as much as you want and need. That's what we're here for. It's an awesome community full of lovely women. :D Sure am looking forward to getting to know you.

Welcome Leu!! You've come to an amazing community of women. I will be praying for you and hope that find comfort here and peace.

[welcomesign] Leu...the ladies here are great encouragement!

[welcomesign] Leu!

I joined CMoms in Sept/Oct while ttc #1 with the same feeling of frustration. It was a 20 months strenuous journey for DH and I. I was one of those ladies who liked to be in control of things. I am grateful for our Lord's gentle (didn't feel it was gentle at that time) nudges to give over completely to Him. I won't say I've totally changed for the better, but am glad I am a work in progress in our Potter's Hands.

I pray that you continue in your faith becoming stronger together as a couple for however long He wants you to be in this journey and you'll come out victorious in the end... whatever His plan may be. Our God is good!

Thank you everyone for the encouragement. I really needed to read this today. I am trusting in God. I am feeling pressure from both sides (my family and my husbands family) My mother in law kept telling me on mothers day that I am pregnant. She said she can tell. My father in law wants a grandchild. My grandmother keeps asking when are we going to have a baby. They only answer I can give is...."When the LORD wills" I am not in control of this. God is. I am trying to set my emotions aside and trust and depend on the Lord. It is hard. I feel so empty on the inside. I have prayed, I have cried. Ive read the Bible. This is a true test of my faith. I just cant explain how I feel on the inside. I try to focus on other things. I will be testing at the end of the week. No matter the results MY GOD IS BEYOND AMAZING. Please keep me in prayer.