So I'm struggling again... We only bd'd once around the time I o'd but that still makes a bfp a possibility. But I'm not feeling any different. Plus my cousin just announced she got a bfp. Sigh. So difficult. I'm just losing hope I'm ever going to get pregnant. Ever. Should we even adopt? Am I content with my life the way it is? Am I just going after this because I *can't* have it?

So many questions. So many hormones. Lol

I wish I had words of wisdom for you.... ((hugs)) and prayers.

Oh gal... I'm sure praying for you! God bless you, sweetheart~ ::hugs::

aww hun ((hugs)).

I think of you and Rachel often. I pray that the Lord will bless you soon with a miracle~

Thanks for just 'being there' ladies!

I had a rough week... Trouble sleeping, lots of stress at work, and bad neck and back pain for the last 2 days. When I look at my last posting now, I wonder who that negative person is! Lol

I know God is with me and that He's got a plan in all this. I have a hard time understanding it, or even seeing it, sometimes, but I'm choosing to believe. Thanks for your encouraging words!

[lovesign] Praying Tripper :-D

Hugs..
Have had some of those days lately too.

It's funny... We've been TTC for 5 years now, but I never really thought we had a problem. I just figured it was our timing, or not our 'time', or whatever. Despite the testing we've been through and everything!

But it's finally hitting me: we have fertility issues and will likely not conceive naturally, if the past is any predictor of the future.

It's only taken me 5 years to learn to acknowledge this truth. Now what's the next step in the grief cycle again? :Lol: I'm not sure where God's gonna take us in the next phase of our marriage and our lives, but that's where I feel like we're at. The beginning of something... New? Different? Life's circumstances seem to all be coming together to create the end of this current 'phase'. I just hope it really IS something new that's going to happen, cause more of the same would really suck.

I can't wait for AF to get here Sunday... My nose is super sensitive and driving me crazy! Lol

(Think the reverse psychology will work to keep AF away? :D)

you never know:-D whenever i thought i was pregnant i wasn't and when i used to be like there's no way, iam not i was lol!! guess i don't know my own body that well lol!!

Tripper you are such a sweet lady! HUGS AND PRAYERS :-D:-D

A sensitive nose + sore breasts + (-chocolate cravings) + (-cramping) = probably AF... :(

Ok, so not really cramping. More like lower ab pain.

Still probably AF. I should know by Sunday!

A sensitive nose + sore breasts + (-chocolate cravings) + (-cramping) = probably AF... :(

Ok, so not really cramping. More like lower ab pain.

Still probably AF. I should know by Sunday!

Oh honey! I am praying moment to moment for you gal! Praying-praying-praying!

I did a search on all the barren woman of the bible and came up with 7 of them, and all of them were eventually blessed with children of their own except for Michal, davids wife, and I looked up the scripture that tells why, but I wanted to encourage you, that God is for a blessed womb, I could not find one barren woman (other than michal) that God did not or refused to bless them with children, so it shows me that God wants you to have children of your own womb also, I dont know when but if we just keep holding on to our faith, that God blesses the barren with children of their own, I found scripture after scripture where God wants to bless the barren with children of their own, I cant tell you when but I believe if one holds on to God's word and not let your faith waver, He will answer your prayers, I know its hard not to get discourage and its okay too :) I just wanted to give you something to help uplift you, to not give up on God, because in His word it shows He is for woman having children of their own :)
Deuteronomy 7:14
Thou shalt be blessed above all people: there shall not be male or female barren among you, or among your cattle.
Deuteronomy 7:13-15 (King James Version)
13And he will love thee, and bless thee, and multiply thee: he will also bless the fruit of thy womb, and the fruit of thy land, thy corn, and thy wine, and thine oil, the increase of thy kine, and the flocks of thy sheep, in the land which he sware unto thy fathers to give thee.
14Thou shalt be blessed above all people: there shall not be male or female barren among you, or among your cattle.
15And the LORD will take away from thee all sickness, and will put none of the evil diseases of Egypt, which thou knowest, upon thee; but will lay them upon all them that hate thee.
Psalm 113:8-9 (King James Version)
9He maketh the barren woman to keep house, and to be a joyful mother of children. Praise ye the LORD

The First Barren Woman
Sarai (Sarah) Genesis 16

these woman were devout and there is no obviously reason why God would punish these ladies with barrenness. The first one was mother Sarai later called Sarah. She waited until she was in her nineties before she bore Isaac which means laughter. He was the child of promise and from her barrenness all the nations would be blessed so in a sense this one child is the beginning of that blessing to all of the nations mentioned in Isaiah 54:1 above. See a better explanation in Galatians 4:27.

The Second Barren Woman
Rebekah
Genesis 25:21
Now Isaac pleaded with the LORD for his wife, because she was barren; and the LORD granted his plea, and Rebekah his wife conceived

The second woman was Rebekah. Not only was Isaac's mother barren so was his own wife Rebekah. The odds of this happening in three consecutive generations naturally are phenomenal. She prayed and then Isaac petitioned God and when she finally conceived after twenty years of marriage she had twins. These two sons were battling in her womb for the full nine months and distressed her so much that she asked the Lord God why. His answer was that two very different nations are in her womb. One that God would love and protect and one that he would not. In Malachi 1:2-3 it says that God hated Esau but loved Jacob. From Jacob comes the House of Israel, the chosen family from whom God would call his first fruits as a body of witnesses to his ways, beginning with his only begotten Son Jesus the Christ.

The Third Barren Woman
Rachel genesis 30

The third woman was Jacob's beloved wife, Rachel. She was the younger of two sisters. Jacob's uncle deceived him as he had deceived his father Isaac. Rachel produced two very important sons but only two. Joseph who symbolized the Christ in Egypt for his family because his character brought physical salvation to them from a severe famine. The youngest child in this family was Benjamin and Rachel lost her life giving birth to this child.

The Fourth Barren Woman
Samson's Mother
Judges 13:2
Now there was a certain man from Zorah, of the family of the Danites, whose name was Manoah; and his wife was barren and had no children.
Judges 13:1-3 (in Context) Judges 13 (Whole Chapter)
Judges 13:3
And the Angel of the LORD appeared to the woman and said to her, “Indeed now, you are barren and have borne no children, but you shall conceive and bear a son.

The fourth woman in the Scripture who was barren was Samson's mother the wife of Manoah of the tribe of Dan. She prayed to God and he permitted her to have one son who was to be one of the strongest physically of all of the judges in that period of Israelite history. Samson was given to the priests of God as a Nazarite vow from his grateful mother and his hair was never cut until a crafty Philistine woman Delilah tricked Samson into telling her what made him so strong and supernaturally powerful. His resolve proved to bring the downfall of the Philistines and their god Dagon.



The Fifth Barren Woman
Hannah 1 samuel ch1

The fifth woman was the second wife of Elkanah the Ephraimite who was called Hannah. She also prayed and they thought that she was drunk but the Lord God heard her prayer and she was given a son called Samuel. She too was grateful and dedicated her only son to the priests of the Lord God of Israel. After he was weaned he lived in the High Priest's house and took over the judgeship when Eli's and his own sons died for their sins. Samuel was responsible for anointing both Kings Saul and David.

The Sixth Barren Woman
Michal
2 Samuel 6:20-23 (New King James Version)
20 Then David returned to bless his household. And Michal the daughter of Saul came out to meet David, and said, “How glorious was the king of Israel today, uncovering himself today in the eyes of the maids of his servants, as one of the base fellows shamelessly uncovers himself!”
21 So David said to Michal, “It was before the LORD, who chose me instead of your father and all his house, to appoint me ruler over the people of the LORD, over Israel. Therefore I will play music before the LORD. 22 And I will be even more undignified than this, and will be humble in my own sight. But as for the maidservants of whom you have spoken, by them I will be held in honor.”
23 Therefore Michal the daughter of Saul had no children to the day of her death

The sixth woman was the first wife of David, Saul's daughter Michal. She loved David but her father took her out of David's house and annulled their marriage and gave her to another. She was the prize for the man who could bring down the dreaded Goliath of Gath. There is some jealousy and broken promises in this story.



The Seventh Barren Woman
Elizabeth
Luke 1:7
But they had no child, because Elizabeth was barren, and they were both well advanced in years

The seventh and final woman of the Scripture was Elizabeth the wife of Zacharis who was barren but in her old age conceived a son. This son was the cousin of Jesus of Nazareth. He was the son of the Levitical priestly clans and was called John the Baptist. Jesus called him the greatest man born of woman. He was killed by Herod the Great to please his stepdaughter's lustful wishes for a charming dance on his birthday


I wrote this to hopefully encourage you :) I know I believe very differently in certain areas of the Word then the majority of the ladies on here, I have come to offend a couple of them by accident by my beliefs, so I have had to tone my preaching down lol so if I offend you in anyway please just brush me off and dont give it a second thought, because I only want to encourage you :)

God was keeping a promise he made specifically to Israel long ago as recorded in the Bible. I know many, many faith filled women who were never able to have children or children by their own womb, who were called to something else. A lot of them have been hurt by the church too. These gals sum it up well:Hannah's Prayer Ministries Biblical Issues Position Statement: Faith and Fertility (http://www.hannah.org/index.cfm?i=5455&mid=3).


Sarah,
Praying this is your time!

Melinda, thank you. I appreciate any and all encouragement and have not taken offense to anything you said!

Rachel, thank you for what you added. I always like hearing different perspectives and appreciate your insights.

That being said, my intent was never to stir up controversy or hurt anyone's feelings. I'm trying to hold to the promise I believe God gave me, but I'm also aware that not all God-fearing, Christian women conceive and deliver their own children. Whether God gives me a child that's genetically mine, through adoption or even both, I'm now at a place where I can accept that.

My hope is that my experience will encourage others, as they encourage me along my journey!

And what a journey it is... :rolls eyes: lol

I have been praying for you and wondering if there was a sweet little baby being formed in someone's womb specifically for you. Isn't that just amazing to think about? I pray that if the Lord is keeping your womb closed that He has a wee little one just for you out there! :-D

Love you and praying for continued peace and contentment in the life the Lord has for you. And if it's His will..and very dark BFP!!

Blessings,
Amber

Praying :-D

My newest, latest symptom? Sharp pain in my right breast, along the outside (towards my armpit). AF is due tomorrow or the day after.
I guess we'll see if I can add this to my ever-growing list of AF symptoms! Lol

Ack... My latest cold has caught up with me. I'm a bit achy with a sore throat and cough going deeper into my chest. And feeling sort of feverish, but my temp hasn't gone above 98.6 yet. Why does this (getting sick) always happen right before AF shows up?

Also, my bbs are still sore. Dh confirmed that for me tonight by hugging a little too hard... Can that be because of my cold? They're not usually sore for this long.

I'm just praying I still have a voice tomorrow and that I don't sound like a man! Lol

No AF or spotting yet, though.

So sorry you're sick! Hope you feel better soon!

Awww Man... I'm sorry you're sick gal... :( I sure hope those BBs being sore is a *good* sign! I'm praying hard here, gal! God bless you, hun~ ::hugs::

I am sorry your sick, maybe hormones have something to do with getting sick? I know a stuffy nose is a sign of pregnancy too so since pregnancy and pms have so many symptoms in commn I guess you could get kind of sick before af everytime? Anyways I am hoping those sore boobies are a good sign, and you get to feeling better :)

I also read somewhere that your immune system drops right before AF, so that could have something to do with it too!

I had a bit of spotting this morning, and a few small cramps this aft... I think I may be out again. :(

We'll see soon.

Awww...trip... Still praying and pouring my heart out to the Lord on your behalf. ::hugs::

It's official - I'm out! AF showed up tonight. But I'm ok. We'll just keep going and maybe some day our stats will change.

Thanks for all your prayers and thoughts ladies! It helps keep me going!

Second super bummer: dh is going to be away this month for the week before I ovulate. :sob:
Will out timing EVER work out?

big hugs, honey...praying for the Lord to send you His peace today in a very specific way.

(((((((hugs))))))) I wish we didn't live so many hours apart.

I'm so sorry gal~ I'm continuing to pray for/over you~ Big-big hugs, gal~ ::hugs::