Well my 6th month of TTC was unsuccessful. I started off this TTC journey so excited and now I just am having a hard time getting excited about the possibility of pregnancy which isn't coming like I thought. Never thought I would be here. Right now I don't even know what to feel, think, or say. I'm already so very tired of this rollercoaster and wondering why me. Me and dh are ready and it's incredibly disappointing month after month. At first it was just me with the disappointment, but now, no matter how hard he tries, I now see the disappointment from dh. I don't know. I really feel like my body is betraying me. I want to have spiritual comfort, but today, I don't know how to get it. I'm so lost everybody. I'm so hurt.

Well the one thing I can do is to stop rambling so I'll sign off for now.

I am so sorry af showed, so disappointing. (hug)
When we were in the middle of a really hard time my Dh said to me " just think if you were standing beside God and could understand perfectly why this was happening, you would make the same choice." Now I always think of that when something is happening that I do not understand. God can see the big picture and he does have us in His hands. I love that new song that irishmum2boys just posted http://www.christian-mommies.com/forumsv4/showthread.php?t=16943

Hoping next month you get that Bfp and will pray for you. [praying]

Plaid - thank you for blessing me through your post and the link to that wonderful song. Gives me much to thinking about.

Well the one thing I can do is to stop rambling so I'll sign off for now.

You can ramble all you want here; sometimes it really helps to pour emotions out here. I wrote an infertility journal in the premium area, then moved it to childless.me (http://childless.me/). It helped writing everything down. It's such a very hard struggle...

Praying for peace of mind and trust that God cares for you and has a plan, while all these questions and doubts come up, and thru the pain.

((hugs)) so sorry to hear that and it's good to talk about it. ttc can be a crazy journey , i was 23 when me an dh started trying and i thought iam young so it's gonna happen quick , but like you say every moth started to become a dissapointment and something i didn't look forwrd to , but god is faithful and he will give you the strengh and comfort to get through this. but defo feel free to shout , cry , rant ect that's what were here for :-D

I am so sorry Darcel, I will pray for you! hugs!