I have to get off the other thread and move on to happier titles! I wanted to encourage all of you TTC ladies with a revelation I had with my creator this morning on the way in to work. Last night I had a total cry fest with my pillow and the hubby. I cried and asked him why he felt like we had to go through this. My hubby, in his infinite wisdom and understanding said the following, "I am going to say this, and it might sound rude but I am not trying to be rude. This trial is not something that God is even worried about. He is more concerned with the fact that we are hurting than the fact that we aren't pregnant. See we only see the corner peice of the puzzle that we are holding, God has the box top. He sees the final picture and understands that this is neccesary." Of course that didn't stop the tears, but it did make it a little easier to fall asleep. Then on my way into work this morning I was praying and thinking about promises I felt like God had to come through on. Mainly for me to be a mom. Out of the blue a song that I sang when I was 15 came on the radio. You may know it, If You Want me To by Ginny Owens. One of the lines is, "and if all of the trials bring me closer to you, then I will walk through the fire if you want me to." Just then I began to realize, there really are reasons for our trials. Even if we don't understand them now, eventually we will get more pieces of the puzzle and we will look back to this with appreciation as hard as that is to believe. One of my very wise TTC Alumnae friends told me, upon learning of my first miscarriage, that now that she has children she never goes back and thinks man I wish they wouldn't have gotten here earlier. "And then God answered: "Write this. Write what you see. Write it out in big block letters so that it can be read on the run. The vision-message is a witness pointing to what's coming. It aches for the coming-it can hardly wait! And it doesn't lie. If it seems slow in the coming, wait. It's on its way. It will come right on time." What promise can you make to God? I am promising to do whatever it takes to be closer to Him. If it means walking through fire, that is what I will do. I hope you ladies found this encouraging. Let's let this thread be a place to share moments of encouragement and scriptures that are lifting us up. Love you ladies!! [loveyou]

Thanks so much for sharing with us :) I will be praying for you. I am sorry you are going through all of this. I know your pain all to well. It is hard to see a light at the end of that tunnel but it is there :) There was a song that really touched my heart too, it is by superchick beauty from pain...

After all this has passed, i still will remain
After i've cried my last, there'll be beauty from pain
Though it won't be today,
Someday i'll hope again
And there'll be beauty from pain
You will bring beauty from my pain

My whole world is the pain inside me
The best i can do is just get through the day
When life before is only a memory
I'll wonder why God lets me walk through this place
And though i can't understand why this happened
I know that i will when i look back someday
And see how you've brought beauty from ashes
And made me as gold purified through these flames

Thank you so much for sharing this! I need a word of encouragement and I saw your thread and there i got it :) God will bless us when the time is right. I am praying for blessings to overflow to you and your family.

Thanks Anne! That was a great reminder of what I needed to hear - again!

That was a wondeful post!! I very much believe this too....Dh and I TTC for 5 years (as an unbeliever to boot!) before we were blessed with our sweet Emma. I got saved when I was 20 weeks preggo with her, and I KNOW the Lord used our miscarriages before Em to reach my hard heart! We see why the Lord had us wait for so many reasons! After Em, we were blessed with our son Noah, and many on here know that Noah had two MAJOR physical defects that were caused by a chromosomal defect. We had NO idea why the Lord gave to us only to take our sweet baby boy home at 2 days old, but over three years later we are STILL seeing His work through our son's short life. If ever there was a time of pain and "walking through the fire" for me/us, it would have been that pregnancy through trusting the Lord as we let go!
We were once again blessed with a healthy little girl not long after Noah met Jesus and we are SO thankful for HIS timing because if things were different, we would NOT have Mak. We lost another sweet little one at 5 weeks, but the very next cycle we were blessed with healthy boy/girl twins who are about to enter our household and become active parts of our life! Once again, if we stayed preggo with the baby we lost, we would not have Savannah and Spencer right now!
I am in awe of how our Lord works. There are so many times where we can remember feeling so frustrated, let down, alone, and/or angry things weren't going our way...BUT we can see the Lord's fingerprints on our life....and there is no other place we would rather be!!

The Lord DOES have a plan, and His perfect will is just that....perfect. How can we argue with that?

Blessings,
Amber