Hey ladies,
I thought it would be a good idea to post your ttc testamony in this forum.
I know there are some ladies that may not post, but will read and maybe through our testamonies we can be a source of encoureagement for them.
Whether you were successful in acheiving a pregnancy or through adoption. Just post your journey and I will sticky it for others to read!

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looks like I am first...

DH and I started ttc just shy of 2 year of marriage. I, like a lot of women thought I would go of bc and get pregnant. After a few months of ttc, I found c'moms and had so much encouragement and support. I learned about TCOYF and bought a copy and read the book. I began to chart and thought "now I will get pregnant" I still didn't get pregnant. I charted and learned that my cycles were very irregular, ranging from 32-53 days. Months and months past, and then a year passed. I thought I would never get pregnant and started talking to dh about adoption (he didn't want to) When I was home alone at night, I would turn off the lights and light some candles and I would sit in my rocking chair (that we had bought for me to rock our babies in) praying and pleading and crying out to God that he would open my womb. 13 months of ttc we finally conceived our son. I was so happy and excited I am still praising God.
When our son was 13 months old we decided to start ttc again since we figured it would take awhile. little did we know that one month later we would be pregnant with our dd. God is so good, his timing is perfect. I am praying for all of you waiting for Gods answer, just remember that no matter what God's answer is for your ttc, His will is more perfect than ours.

4HisGlory - I found your post very encouraging. My husband and I have been trying to conceive for a little over a year now, and still haven't been blessed with a little one. After the first 4 months or so, I realized my cycles were very irregular. I went back on BC for 3 months to regulate my cycles. I have been off BC for 5 or 6 months now and my cycles are much more regular, so I thought it would come a lot easier, but it hasn't. I became so discouraged that we have stopped actively trying. I have decided to just let it happen when God is ready because no matter what we do, it won't happen any sooner. It is very hard because I want to be a mom so bad, but I know that it will happen when God has planned for it to. I just thought I would let you know that your words were very calming, because I have seen so many women get pregnant just a couple of months into their TTC journey, and it is very discouraging for me and other women who aren't so lucky.

I went through the ttc journal and grabbed my posts because at the time the hurt and frustration was still so fresh. I just want to add, that I am now on my third pregnancy and it was a total surprise! We didn't think I would get pregnant again so easily after the struggles we went through to conceive Josiah, our second child. I hope my journey will be a blessing and an encouragment to those that are traveling that rough road or ttc.

I've been ttc with my 2nd child for over a year now. I have one beautiful dd, who is 3years old and she is the main reason we are trying for a second. My dd, Abby has been praying for a year, for a sibling. Everyday, before she eats or goes to bed, she asks God to put a baby in Mommies tummy. Her friends all have little siblings, and she adores the little babies at church.
I would like to have my children close in age. But God may want something different.
I use to get really depressed each month when AF would come. I would pray, and obsess about every little twitch in my body and wonder.... maybe this is the month. It of course wasn't, and I'd cry. I was getting to the point when I would question God, whether He was listening or even cared. After all I wasn't asking for a new house, or more money to shop with. I simply would like to build my family. Then one day my dh and I was talking, and we were discussing Hezakiah, and how he begged God to not take his life when God wanted to. God answered his prayer and gave him 10 more years to live. In that time Hezakiah had a son, and when Hezakiah died, his son became king. He was one of the most wicked kings to ever have lived.
That got me thinking. I don't want to beg God for a BFP and God just give it to me because I ask, and that child may grow up to never love and accept Christ. To me, I'd rather not have any child, if they were to grow up and reject Christ,die and live eternally in hell.

So after thinking about things, and praying. God gave me a peace that calmed my soul. It's been about 2 months since I have received peace about ttc. I still pray for my bfp, I still have hope. I chart my bbt, cm and cp. I am doing all that I can on my part and waiting for God to do His! But I find that this month I am more hopeful. My "symptoms" are different than in the past. but I could just be obsessing and focusing too much (if that's possible C= )

I'm looking forward to journaling my symptoms, and my thoughts. Hopefully, one day I'll be able to look back on this journey with a new baby in my arms, and see God's hand through it all.
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Dear Lord,
I really need your strength right now. For some reason this month is harder for me. I'm analyzing everything, and i'm not simply trusting you. I don't mean not to, but my heart so desires to be pregnant again. I anticipate taking my temp tomorrow. My head seems to think if I just imagine, or tell my body to have a high temp tomorrow, my chances of being pregnant this month might be good. But I know Lord, this is in your hands. I know i can't think myself into pregnancy. I just want to see that BFP so badly that sometimes the rejection feels almost too much. But nothing is too much for you or with you.
I feel like my spirit is battling my flesh. Lord, give me the strength to hold on to you. To trust you. To believe that you will hear my prayers and answer them in your timing.
Thank you Lord, for being so good to me. For all the many blessings in my life. You have never, not for a moment, have ever forgotten me.
Forever yours,
Amen
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Well after a few more months of ttc and trying to remain in God's peace, He did in deed answer my prayers. I was pregnant and I couldn't believe it. I look back now and see God's hand in everything. My dd1 is five years old and my ds2 14 months, and i'll be having a little girl in November! He always knows what he is doing!

Great idea Esther.

During our ttc journey, I just couldn't understand why I wasn't getting pregnant since my cycles were regular and my fertility monitor almost always showed a positive reading around day 14 of my cycle. We tried medical intervention such as injectables with an IUI and it still didn't happen. It wasn't until my dh and I both became obedient in many areas of our lives that we ended up pregnant. We finally got pregnant after 3 years of ttc. In our case, we know the Lord was doing a work in us first. At the time it was so hard to see AF every month...but the ladies here were so encouraging and kept praying. In the end, it was worth waiting on God's perfect timing.

Last February, I became pregnant with our second baby, but lost it at 9 weeks. So, we are now on another ttc journey. I'll just have to wait and see if another baby is in God's plan for me at 39 years old!

Gina I am so happy you posted! Whenever I think of someone who waited for their BFP my mind ALWAYS goes to you! I am SO happy the Lord blessed you with Israel and pray that he will bless you again soon.

Esther what a beautiful testimony. I didn't know that about you finding peace in the midst of ttc in the way you did. God is always So good to give us things according to HIS will. When I pray I always ask for His will over mine, because I KNOW that even if I become homeless, my children and dh die, and my health fails...if that is God's will it is ALWAYS better then the riches that are not.

This ttc is so full of heartache sometimes. But it also gives us a testimony to those who are where we were. For that I am so grateful. Any heartache that is given to me by God or caused by my sin, are always wonderful stories of how God redeemed that situation. I love that SO much about our God.

Wow, your testimonies are so encouraging to me right now! I know that God has brought me to this site for a reason. It has been such a hard journey for me so far. Each month AF comes, and I break down. I cry and wonder if God will ever bless me with children. I was literally tearing up reading your posts because I know that you are right. You give me so much hope. I need to just trust God and put this wholeheartedly into his hands. I am just finding it so hard to do.
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Dear Father, please be with me and hold my hand through this rough journey. Even though the journey is tough, I know that it will be worth it in the end, and you will see me through. Thank you Lord, for everything you have given me in life. Forgive me for being so impatient with you, Father. It is your will, and your will alone. In Jesus' name I pray, Amen.

[QUOTE=MrsHunt8587;176664] I need to just trust God and put this wholeheartedly into his hands. I am just finding it so hard to do.[QUOTE]

You are not alone in having a hard time in this. I think anyone you talk to that has had any type of struggle could say the same. Hold onto God's promises and visit here! We are always here for you to cry to and to praise God with you! Praying that God will open your womb soon.

DH and I started to ttc in 2003. With luck we did conceive in March that year. In May I found out that we were having twins but they had no heartbeat and I was scheduled for a D&C the following day. We started trying again as soon as the doctor gave the okay. It took 3 years, and 2006 we conceived and everything seemed fine as early as I was. I started spotting and went in to see the doctor. The baby had a heartbeat but they couldn't guarantee us that the pregnancy would sustain. Sure enough a week late I miscarried at home. We decided that we would wait a few months before ttc again, but that didn't happen. We wanted to start a family that we decided to go ahead and go for it. After almost a year with no success I went and saw the doctor about maybe having fertility issues. Sure enough it was found that I only ovulate around 6-7 times out of the year and DH had a SA done and his results were low motility, abnormal swimmers, and low count. We realized that we were facing an up hill battle. But we didn't give up. I went on clomid and we kept on ttc. In June 2007 I found out that I was pg. We were thrilled but so scared. After trying for so long I felt as though this was it for us. Everything was going great until I was around 27weeks. I hadn't felt our daughter move in 4 days so I called the dr. and went in immediately. I had an ultrasound and found out that she had passed. So after the tragedy of it all, I decided and with support from family that I wouldn't give up hope of having a family of our own. We talked about adoption but decided that we would try one last time. Sure enough in Oct. 08 I found out that we were expecting. Things went great, we found out that it was a boy and due to being pre-eclamptic I delivered via c-section May 7, 2009 at 31 weeks. He weighed 2lbs 10ozs. but was breathing on his own and was doing well. Now you would never know it and we have the start of our family. I don't regret anything and I kept my faith in the Lord and continued my journey of ttc. Miracles do happen!

I really hope that my story helps others that are where I have been in my life. I know that it's an emotional ride, but in the end it's worth every ounce of sweat, tears, and anger.

I will pray that women here that are ttc will have the strength to go forward and keep trying and that God will bless them as he has for myself and my family.

What a beautiful testimony. It brought me to tears. and I praise God for your beautiful son here on earth and your sweet angels in heaven. Thank you for being a blessing to those ttc.

Absolutely wonderful testimony!! Thank you so much for sharing with us!

Thank you for the beautiful testimony! God is good... all the time!

Thanks guys your stories are really encouraging. My husband and I have been ttc for a year now and have found that I have PCOS and do not ovulate due to hormone levels. This has been very hard for me because becoming a mother is so dear to my heart. I know that when and if God wants me to become pregnant it will happen. My OBGYN wants me to go on clomid next month and I was not sure about this at first. With time in prayer and discussions with my husband I feel like God may use this as a tool so my body can conceive. I hope and believe that with God’s will that it can help my husband and I start our family.

Thank God for this website and may he bless you all!