I can't believe how scared I am. I've been through this 3 other times and everything was fine. Things have been so different with this pregnancy that I am just scared about what may end up happening. I am in lots of pain mainly in my pelvic area. I had this same problem with Preston but not until much later. I waddle big time. I have a hard time getting up once I have gotten down. :wink: I have a hard time walking for a long time. I can't sleep because I can't get comfortable. I'm not "complaining" because this is all worth it to me. I'll get a wonderful blessing from this. I'm just worried that with the pregancy being this "hard" if my labor will be hard too.

I had somewhat of a panic attack when I was having Preston. The lady in the room beside me was s-c-r-e-a-m-i-n-g so loud that it freaked me out. I had to be induced and wasn't sure what was going to happen. Then, they lost Preston's heartbeat a couple of times. I finally agreed to some Stadol (Sp?) that helped relax me. Then, when it came time to push, they wouldn't let me and that freaked me out all over again. It was weird because I had never felt so freaked out over anything. So, sometimes, I wonder if it's going to be like that again. Or is something bad going to happen? Am I going to be able to deliver the baby naturally? How big will he or she be? Preston was 9lb 14oz and 22 1/2 inches long.

I have just been thinking about this a lot lately and have realized that I am scared. Like I said, I shouldn't be since I've done it 3 times before. But, then again, none were the same.

Was/is anyone else scared to go through labor and delivery? I wasn't scared any other time until I was in the throws of Preston's labor/delivery. Then I got a little scared. But, I wasn't before. I've heard of people being scared of the pain, but that's not what bothers me. I mean, it doesn't feel good or anything, but I can deal with the pain. It's the uncertainty of what else may happen during my labor.

Hurry up March!!

Lori

Lori I think it's normal to be nervous about your pregnancy. I'll be praying for you and your baby! Stephanie :D

Praying for you!

I was scared of the pain with my first before labor, but once I was in labor I didn't worry about that any more - I did worry like crazy when my son's heartbeat dropped drastically a few times and they worried that my contractions were putting him into fetal distress and a big swat team came in to put a monitor up my you-know-what to keep closer tabs on him before it was time to push - I was SO scared and I prayed so hard during those last few hrs that my boy would be delivered alive and healthy and not that I had gotten thru all my pg and 3/4 of labor just to lose him when I was so close to holding him. It worked and he was fine, PTL!
I am worried about this pg also but not for the same reasons, I do know what it is like to be scared and pg though and it is no fun at all!!!! Praying that God gives us both the grace to give up all our worries and troubles to him so that we can focus on other things we can actually control and leave what is up to him in his hands with complete trust.

Oh Lori, I'm sorry you're feeling this way. [hug] God will carry you through this delivery, just like He did your last three. [OK] Keep your eyes open for Him and let Him be there for you. He'll get you through every single thing you need to walk through, and He wants you to know his presence in every situation. He'll be there. He's your comforter and your deliverer. You can count on Him. [heartbeat]

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Am I going to be able to deliver the baby naturally? How big will he or she be? Preston was 9lb 14oz and 22 1/2 inches long.


Big hug sweetie. [hug] It is all going to be okay. I understand how you are feeling. The same thing happened to me. Baby #3 was 9lbs 11oz and each baby had gotten bigger by a pound or more. So for baby #4 I got attacked by fear one night as I worked as a labor and delivery nurse at a hospital. God told me to open my bible. I always had it with me at work for slow nights. It opened right to Pslam 34. It put me right at ease. God is in control. No one has kicked Him off His throne, and He loves you and that baby so much. Remember:

"When we have exhausted our store of endurance, when our strength has failed ere the day is half done.

When we reach the end of our hoarded resources Our Father's full giving is only begun.

His love has no limit, His grace has no measure, His power has no boundary known unto men. For out of His infinite riches in Jesus. He giveth, and giveth, and giveth again!"

I'll try to give the short version as I sit here holding baby, typing one handed....

I had panic attacks with #3. I, too, felt quite uncomfortable early on. First labor 27 hr, the 2nd was 5...I had no idea *what* to expect with number 3.
I felt awful. Uncomfortable, sick, all that stuff.
The entire last month I had contractions. Not just BH, contractions. Ugh! So that got me thinking this baby was going to come early. Shoot, if it means getting this 'thing' out of me and not feeling like this anymore...I'm all for it!! But that didn't happen. Many nights of "oo contraction...another...hey, these are pretty close..and strong..is this it?" Then my thoughts of "aack I don't want to do this..I don't like labor. Is it too late to change my mind?" I would start to freak over the whole idea and the contractions would shut down completely.
This whole scenario happened time and time and time again that last month. I was so frustrated. So mad...at God. I had been wondering why He was doing this to me. I hated him for doing this to me, all of it. I didn't even care about a baby, I just wanted this whole thing to be overwith.
I knew that was a bad attitude to have, but I didn't care. That was the side that was controlling me at the time.
Then another night of the contractions, I was up walking through them and everything, then I freaked. Then cried when they stopped because I was just so "done". That was my bottom. I felt miserable. I prayed and repented of my awful attitude. I knew this child was a blessing. I knew my Lord had given him to me. I knew He would get me through. I had no reason to fear. I needed to put my trust in Him. He had gotten me through 2 other pregnancies and natural homebirths, He would get me through another. I had to believe and trust in that. I sobbed and prayed for hours that night.
Now I can't remember for sure if it was the next day or if I had a day in between...for some reason that's fuzzy to me now that I try to recall..but anyway..
Monday morning I wake up with some contractions. I didn't think they were anything too major. I just tried going about my day. Had a great attitude. I wasn't worried or fretting over anything. All was well. Then it hit me..this is it...made my phone calls and ds was here 3 hours from that first contraction.

All it took was truly and wholly putting my faith and trust in Him. We are to leave our cares with Him. Not just tell Him of them then continue to try to carry the burdens around. No, we are to l e a v e them at His feet. Let Him handle it. Once I did that I had not a worry.

Then with my following 2 pregnancies, I carried those thoughts through. Whenever there was a moment I would start to get pulled down (which was hardly ever) I would remember the final days of that pregnancy. I would remember my attitude and what happened when I changed it. What happened when I gave control back to Him. And all was well.

My last pregnancy...I did fine..but as labor got nearer I found myself a bit worried that I would freak out. So I got some Bach's Rescue Remedy to have on hand for my panic moments. Then I would pray for strength. One night I had some contractions and I began to have an 'attack', then contractions abruptly stopped. (though, I do think this episode was more due to an MSG reaction) I prayed again, fully letting go this time, trusting in Him. A week later I went into labor. Smoothly. I had no worries..I prayed through every contraction .. I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.. The Lord is my strength...
With the Lord beside me, I gave birth within a few hours..I didn't even need my hubby for anything LOL He fed the kids ;)


All that to say...........
I know how you're feeling. I really understand. And you *CAN* overcome this..but not on your own. Anxiety is a trick of satan..don't let him fool you, do not allow him to attack you in this way. Rely on God, your true strength. He will get you through, just trust Him to do so.